Farewell

October 10^th.

Today I said goodbye to my Nan. Her service was fucking brilliant- she would’ve loved it. Nothing about it was conventional- but that was her… She did things her own way. I got through most of the day with a smile on my face and strength in my heart. That was the kind of woman she was- she could tackle everything with fierce courage and a mighty sense of humour. Today felt like a celebration of everything she was.

What did my Nan mean to me? She was my everything. She raised me with so much love- so much care. She was the one person in the world I could depend on for anything. Whatever the situation- she always had a solution. She was the most selfless person I’ll ever have the honour of knowing.

What have I learnt this trip home? I’ve learnt to make every minute with people count. I’ve learnt to tell more people I love them, to hug people whenever I can, and to always- ALWAYS laugh and see light of a situation. I want my heart as open and big as hers- and that begins right now- this very moment.

Right now it’s a beautiful blazing sunny day. I’m sitting on the coast at the café she passed away at 6 days ago. I’m on my own- having a beer- reflecting- and looking out at the sea. This was the last thing she saw… Clear blue skies, bright sun, waves crashing, people surfing, couples walking hand in hand on the sand…She ended on a fucking amazing bit. Her last chapter couldn’t have been a better one- she deserved it.

I love you Nan- you will be forever in my heart.

xxx